This is the way you left me

Stumbling on questions I used to have answers for.

Keep listening to Happy Ending by Mika before I sleep on most nights. But now I'm listening to it while studying and hence not being productive? Hahhh.

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, no love, no glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love..

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.

3 months. 6 months.

The light at the end of the tunnel is really a train coming at me.

Mom described it so right about what I'm feeling? Heh.

This isn't a life, it's just an existence.

Now, what?

Almost 3 months since I'm back.
School has long started.
No more SUniG.
Singopens 2011 is now over.

So now, what?

Woke up at 10am today, think it's one of the rare times I wake up so late?
Found out how to sleep long. Even if it means having a headache..
Oh no. Now I know why people drink to drown their sorrows..?
Not so exaggerated like in TV shows, but a heavy head beats having a heavy heart.
Ha. ha. ha.

Supposed to be in school to find out equipment for my FYP testing.
But the rain was such a killer. Swam only half of what I wanted and then lightning detector, wanted to go to school since 1pm but the rain was crazy.

Can I just sleep? hahah.

S is for..

:(
sigh sigh.

sore throat,
swollen left cheek, and
slightly sprained right ankle.

suay max?

:(

eating to make me feel better.
bread bread dragonfruit chickenwings bread bread nuts milk cheerios milo and more bread bread bread bread.
but it doesn't make me feel better.

be ok tomorrow, please.
need confidence for saturday too.

i want things to be normal again. but it can't just happen when i say i want  it to, right?